On October 1, 2007, I created my first blog entry and named my blog Sonoma Coast Weekly.  I had no idea what I was doing or how hitting publish would change my life.  

Over the next seven and a half  years, I would deposit my thoughts and feelings about community, family life and our adventures living on the beautiful Sonoma Coast.  Writing about motherhood was a big theme for me, but I always felt a little hesitant to share.  Who was I to pontificate about what it means to be a mom?  Why was what I writing important or worthy of being read?  Was I sacrificing my son's privacy?  All of these questions swirled in my head each and every time I sat down to write and hit publish.

I struggled with what was mine to share and what belonged to my son, my family.

Last year I attended a writing retreat on Orcas Island and communed with so many wonderful creative souls who wrote poetry, music and books.  The nature of their ability to wear their hearts-on-their-sleeves bolstered my creative confidence and I came home and unlocked some of the things I wanted to share with the world with my own words and art.

Last September, as my son entered the sixth grade, I noticed a shift was happening with him.  That shift migrated over to me and it was beginning to alter my role as his mother, once again.  As a result, I no longer felt like his experiences were mine to share here online.  I'm not so sure why it took me almost a dozen years to feel this way, but this is my truth of how it went down.  I have always asked permission to post photos of him but when I reflect on that notion, I realize he never fully understood the scope or consequences of saying yes to these requests; that was my job to decipher and, lately, I felt like I had done a poor job of protecting him.  I'm not sure why I felt the need to share everything online, but I know that my heart was in the right place at the time when I made those decisions.  I've decided to simply forgive myself and understand that this, too, was part of my journey through motherhood.  Tucking away the old blog has been a process, like everything in life, but I'm ready to stop writing about our family publicly.

So that brings me to this space.  

I have purposely kept it clean and simple.  The words and photos I will populate this space with will be all mine.  Obviously, the motherhood lens will still be one I view my life through, but I will try to step up and out of that frame to stretch myself as a woman, an artist, and a human being.

If you've read or commented on my old blog - thank you so very much.  Over the years, your kindness and community has meant so much to me.

Okay.  Here we go.