This week, I needed to create a color study using blues and greens for The Geographic project.
Inspiration came to me in a dream this week. I like when it visits me in this way.
The colors in my journal are the ones I'll use for the Valley Ford paintings.
The colors (below) will be used for the Bodega Bay paintings.
I started small in an effort not to overwhelm myself.
But small can feel limiting and harder than just going for it on a big canvas.
It's a rough start.
The Valley Ford color palette will consist of greens, blues, golds + ochre, whites and pinks.
Acrylics will be used for the under-paintings.
It feels good to be back in the painting studio at school, again, and working with my professor.
This week I'm taking a closer look at artists that I admire and whose work inspires me.
Heather Chontos has bold color choices and strong, confident brush strokes. I love everything about her work.
I love Karine Leger's mark-making, the repetition and wonky geometric shapes. Also the softness of it, as well as they layering.
Heather Day's use of the color blue, as well as her sketchbooks and creative process fascinate me.
I'm a big, big fan of Meredith Bullock's work. She uses vivid colors, bold marks and weaves in her narrative about losing her mother and becoming a mother. She's my favorite.
A close friend sent me a sweet text last week and simply said she saw my new project, was looking forward to watching it unfold and that she hoped it wouldn't be too sad for me.
It made me pause and think. Would this work make me sad?
It most likely will, but I'm okay with that.
I'm actually looking forward to diving back into those foggy memories and tapping into how I used to feel during those drinking years. I'll use mark-making and paint to create work that epitomizes the mood that lived inside of me during those turbulent times. Processing these feelings actually helps me grow and see that they were not all bad; they are informing the woman I am today about how to continue moving through this world. I no doubt will learn a lot about myself throughout this semester.
I love when art can stir up and evoke an emotional response. That's actually one of my favorite things about making it.
I opted to work outside yesterday.
I love the meditative process of prepping canvases, taping off edges and applying a fresh clean coat of gesso.
3 - 8 x 8 inches
3 - 6 x 12 x 1.5 inches
1 - 18 x 24 inches
Hardwood panels will serve to symbolize my solid foundation in sobriety and where I'm at today. It's because of my current recovery that I can look back at my drinking in a healthy, positive way and glean what I need to off the top of those memories.
I love the newness of a project.
All of the ideas flooding in at once.
All the notebooks. Always.
The shapes I'll use, as well as the color palette, will directly reflect my moods and memories from those years when I drank to soothe myself and make me more comfortable in my own skin. When I drank like I used to, I was using alcohol as a way of softening the hard edges of my anxiety and as a way to bare the painful newness of motherhood.